Dear 2015 Me,
It’s been a whirlwind of a year. Honestly, that’s nothing new. Every year is a rollercoaster. I blame my wild, crazy, unapologetic emotions for that. Every year I look back and I see how far I’ve come, how much I’ve matured. Sometimes I look back to months ago and wonder what the hell I was thinking.
To whom it may concern,
I am Joyce and I am full.
I am full of love, life, emotions, and experiences.
I am empty.
I am empty from all of the love that you took from me; empty from the childhood that you stole from me; empty from the spirit that you broke.
When you think back on your life, what moments do you remember? Do you remember the bad times or the good times? Maybe a little of both? I remember a little bit of everything. I had a rocky childhood, but my 20s have been pretty wonderful so far. I’ve lived, loved, and laughed ’til I’ve cried. I’ve had plenty of fulfilling moments in my life and I can easily say “It was the best of times”. I can’t pinpoint a specific moment in my life that was the best, but I can tell you about the moments that were beautiful. These are the moments that I will remember forever. These are the moments that I look back on and smile.
The writing prompt for the #BehindTheBlogger hop this week is “Who do you think you are?” This has been a difficult one for me. I wanted to take this prompt with a confrontational tone, but it’s not where my heart is at right now. I thought I would do something a little different and eye-opening. I am going to write about how I see myself. I am emotional tonight, so let’s see how this goes. It’s going to be interesting because I know we all have a little bit of self-esteem issues, especially as women.
I often find myself day dreaming about life, love, and the pursuit of happiness. I know that’s a “line” but seriously, I ponder these things often. I wonder about how life would be if the world we lived in were different. Many of my thoughts aren’t realistic, but it’s fun to imagine a world at peace. It’s fun to imagine my “perfect world”. Every sine I was a child I would picture my perfect world. Back then it was in the form of drawings. Now it is in the form of writing and I want to share it with you. A lot of my thoughts about the world are inspired by the song “Imagine” By John Lennon. I love the version with Dolly Parton because the video is AWESOME and well, her voice is perfect for this song.
3 years ago I don’t know what I would have written about when asked about “My Whole World”. I felt like my world wasn’t spinning. Nothing major or specific happened. At that time I was just stuck in life. I was going to school, but that was the only thing that made me feel like I could really change my life. Let me set the scene for you.
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